It’s obviously evident to me now that one of the ONLY FUCKING PEOPLE that I want as my best friend wants absolutely nothing to do with me.  And it sucks.  Maybe because I think, but the only thing I’ve ever fucking wanted to do is bake, not go out and fuck, not become close like before.  Before was not nothing, but it wasn’t so significant that I would honestly still be hung up over it.  The two situations ARE similar, unless you think about it like a dense fool who only believes in what they see initially.  How the situations ended was similar, barely anyone knew anything, ended as friends, and in situation 1, closer than before, in situation 2, person B is completely and utterly forgotten, replaced, treated like nothing more than a dirty rag to be thrown away.  Maybe because I refuse to take sides in the other situation.  I will NOT be wrapped around ANYONE’S fucking finger!!  It’s an interesting concept, when people refer to indecision, it’s more a “I’m looking for someone to make decisions for me” situation.  I just have a feeling that this break is going to be as I thought.  I’m going to be alone pretty much the entire time until family times.  Always a shitty feeling when you know that your best friend is trying to ignore you again and don’t know why.

I might as well just disappear…Pretty clear since I never get talked to.